I miss you more with each passing day!

I miss you baby more with each passing day. It's like being lost in the woods and I can't find my way. You mean the world to me and the world you must save, so I miss you more with each passing day. I hope that they realize what a fine man they have over there, because I sure do while you are not here. I'll never take you for granted or the time we can spend, until it is time for you to go again. You make me so very proud of all that you do, I hope that I make you proud as well too. When I get to say Good day to you , you always have to say Good night, so go save the world my sweet prince and know that everything will be alright.


You know I just sat here and came up with this off the top of my head, but it truely says how I feel about my love, my husband, my hero and my soulmate for life. I'll never understand the things he will have to do, but I will love him and miss him no matter what life throws at us. He is the one constant in my life that I know will never leave me other than my children. And I bet you wonder to yourself how does she know this, I have known since the day I first laid my eyes on him that he was the man I had been waiting for all my life, it just took some twists and turns down the road of life for us to find each other. And yeah with the job he has to do I always know there will be bumps in the road, but at least we will see each other through whatever comes our way.

Wait for me by Theory of a Deadman this is my song to u my love.....

Lyrics to Wait For Me :You are not alone tonightImagine me there by your sideIt's so hard to be here so far away from youI'm counting the days till I'm finally doneI'm counting them down, yeah, one by oneIt feels like forever till I return to youBut it helps me on those lonely nightsIt's that one thing that keeps me alive[Chorus:]Knowing that you wait for meEver so patientlyNo one else knows the feeling insideWe hang up the phone without saying goodnightBecause it's the sound of your voice that brings me homeIt's never been easy to sayBut it's easier when I've gone away[Chorus:]Knowing that you wait for meEver so patientlyYeah, you're everything I've ever dreamed of having andIt's everything I need from you just knowing that you wait for me[Bridge:]What I'd giveWhat I'd doKnowing I'm not there for youMakes it so hard to leaveWhat I'd giveWhat I'd doAnything to get me home to youAnd this time I'll stayAnd you wait for meEver so patientlyYeah, you're everything I've ever dreamed of having and It's everything I need from you just knowing that you wait for me[ Wait For Me Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com/ ]

The Loneliness

It has been very hard for the past 45 days. But I've held my head high and march on. The loneliness really kicks in the most when he doesn't walk through the door everyday with a smile on his face even though he had a bad day, watching him walk around, even talk to him, some people take that stuff for granted but not me, I am an Army Wife and I have to cherish all the moments I can.

My Infantryman is Deploying

To all of our family and friends, the time has come and I know he's ready but I'm not to sure I am. We have 2 more days and he's gone for a year. What I'll do without my best friend for a year is nothing, I'll suck it up and live each day waiting for my travelin soldier to come home. And to our friends Angel and Aida, you will be sorely missed, you have both been my rock to lean on in times of sadness, and one to pat me on the back through the good times. You are my little piece of home(Philly). I hope everything works out for you..Have fun in Florida but don't forget the ones you've lefted behind. You have touched all our hearts and lives in many ways..Some people come in and out of your life so quickly , and some leave footprints on our hearts forever..Peace out...

The past comes back to haunt you...

You never really know how something affected you as a child until it comes back on your own child.My daughter received a phone call from what is supposed to be called a Father, when I heard a baby in the background calling him Daddy, I of course asked who it was and he said"My son". Yeah he got married in July and his wife's son is calling him Daddy, not that this is a bad thing but the fact of the matter is he can't even be a father to his real children, or take care of them financially, but yet he can take care of someone else's. Do you know how this made my baby feel? I do, I've been there, it makes you wonder what is wrong with you that your own father can't even treat you like his but can do this for someone else. Don't get me wrong, she has a wonderful Daddy that loves and adores her, but it just makes you feel like shit...Her Daddy wanted to go rip his heart through his ass to show him how it felt when he found out last night.I guess that old saying " Anyone can be a father but it takes someone special to be a Daddy" rings true in this case..And I hope her father always looks back and wonders what a special young lady he missed out on, because thanks to her Daddy she will have it all....

One Life to Live

When you live on a military installation ,you see what has to happen to make sure they come home safe..There is no greater fear then waking up without him here..Yeah I may be lonely alot but with all the training he gets now, the more I won't be lonely when he comes home to me...There are times in life when you gotta crawl,but God gave us mountains so we can learn to climb..If the road was always flat it wouldn't be much of a challenge to live this life to the fullest..When you can't lean on noone else that's when you find yourself...I hope and pray for the best and always expect the worst.....That way it is not a letdown when things around me fall...My soldier was raised in a very strong willed family, and he's to stubborn to do anything but survive..So I believe he will always come home to me just like Dad Laporte always came home before him...Thank you for raising such a stubborn, but loving man..You have both got to be the most proudest parents, and if not you should be, you raised two wonderful children.

Happy Independence Day

To all my brother and sisters in arms..Thank you for all you do..As we remember the true meaning of the 4th of July,let us also remember the fallen and their families,they paid the ultimate price for us to be able to celebrate this day..Let's remember the ones before and also the present as we fight to free others and liberate them.For all the weak and oppressed you are defended by true heroes.....

True Camaderie

I see true Camaderie on a daily basis. And it doesn't matter race, creed, or color. That is true camaderie. A true brother will lay down his life for a friend.....

Dedication to all the Strong Willed Soldiers

You are a few and far between. You are what I call a Rare Breed. They tell you there must be something wrong with you because you don't let this job get to you and you continue the fight for the weak and oppressed. You do not conform to labels posted on you. You are strong and never let anyone or anything tell you any different. As this song says by Our Lady Peace, your not that strong, but you are not weak. It does bother you to see the world we all love and know in such diarray. I watched 2 of you salute for your fellow brothers who were lost when TAPS plays. You are true heroes and never forget that, you know who you are, I don't have to name you. To watch you on a daily basis keeps me going because I know my life can't be half as bad as watching fellow Brothers fall to this war and others before..Like I said you are a Rare Breed and I am glad I know you all...

The Daily life of an Infantry Wife

You never realize how lonely life is until reality sinks in and your the one left behind for the greater good of man.I love my soldier, war is his life on a daily basis, and it is for the family waiting and keeping up the homefront..Anticipation of departure huh, they really have no idea what that truely means until they live it...Yes, I am very scared, scared of the unknown, the not knowing on a daily basis..Is he going to come home all fucked up in the head like the ones before him..Don't feel sorry for me though, I knew what I was doing when I married this wonderful man..Thursday is my appointment with the Dr. to untie my tubes, so maybe before he leaves for Hell, he'll have something to look forward to when he gets home....

An Army Wife poem

I've noticed in my present job,there is a tiny quirk.
There's no respect at all and it's not considered work.
Well, I am here to show you another point of view, and give you an idea of what I really do!
Here's my job description and to better understand, it's written in the language of the Army Man.
I'm the IG, complaints come to me.
I am the Medic, I bandage skinned knees.
I'm the Legal Office and the court martial,too.
I decide the punishment, how much and on who, I'm Health: Welfare, inspecting for junk,
and the 1SGT checking the bunk.
I'm also Supply, in charge of food,clothes,housewares,diapers,toys,heaven only knows.
I'm the MP, who secures the door, I'm also the PVT who GI's the floor,
I'm the Mess SGT who cooks all the meals.
I'm TMP in charge of the wheels.
I'm MWR planning all the fun and I am the Bugler, announcing the "day is done".
I'm the KP, who does all the dishes, I am the DA who hears all your wishes.
I'm the CQ and the Fireguard, too, there isn't that much that I don't do.
I'm the instructor too, you see, because what is learned is taught by me.
I'm the Squad Leader, who knows his troops well, sometimes the Drill SGT who really can yell.
I'm the S4, S1, 2, 3, just about everything must come through me!
Appropriations, taskings, commitments too, I'm responsible for all we do.
I never go to battle, and AR of some sort, but you can count on me to bravely guard the fort.
I'm ALWAYS on duty, I never take leave, no Holidays off, it's hard to believe!
I can never ETS, I signed for life, my primary MOS is Mother, my secondary is Army Wife.
For all my devotion, to duty, my LES says" NO PAY DUE " because I'm not paid in money, but in the words of " I LOVE YOU".
I AM AN ARMY WIFE!

To all our family, Billy is definetly deploying in September, there will be no Medboard. Just thought I'd post the poem from my deployment handbook from FRG. It definetly tells of the life of an Army wife. I am going through what they call stage 1 of emotional stages of deployment, which is anticipation of departure where reality starts to sink in and tempers flare against other people as you try to make memorable times before deployment. Well I know that feeling quite well at this point in time. Hope all our family and friends back home are doing well, know you are missed and loved by us very much.............

The Infantryman is soooo happy!!!

Well I just talked to Sir William and he is so estatic that he doesn't care if it runs into his leave, he woohooed so loud his Mortar platoon asked him if everything was okay and he said it was more than okay he was going to be a Daddy again. And the names have been chosen thanks to Mom and Dad Laporte and Mom Webb. William said we will decide if it's a boy if it will be Andrew Joseph Laporte or Joseph Andrew Laporte, and if it is a girl it will be Madeline Mae Laporte (Maddy for short) another M&M. a special thanks to Mom and Dad Laporte for being so happy right along with us and if I do get pregnant before he goes to Iraq, I will come home for about 3 months. That way my doctor here can deliver the baby instead of Lincoln county my husband said, because of course I will have to have a c-section but it will be worth it in the end. And after the baby is born and I heal up real good I will bring him or her home to see everyone. Just pray for a healthy baby we don't really care about the sex of it as long as Mom and baby are healthy. We are so excited. Our baby is 5 years old so it will definetly be different beings all our children are alot older but that just means extra hands to help out with Daddy being gone. And beings it will be a c-section it will be a planned operation so he will take his leave then to be home for the birth. But if he can't get it then, I would like to fly Mom Laporte here for the birth beings she is my best friend other then my husband. And they will have him on a computer cam in a private room in Iraq to watch from there,, so he will still be there to see his son or daughter born. Well I am going to go to bed cause all my meds have made me exhausted. I love all of you and miss you bunches and I will talk to you later.
Love Tink
p.s. If it is a girl her nursery will be Tinkerbell according to Daddy and big Sis. And if it is a boy it will be trucks and trains...Love and kisses to all. Love you Cameron, Chris and Kailey and Buncle Bill said hello and he loves you too....

Good News Everyone.....

Well I have good news everyone!!!! I have an ultrasound done on May 30 at 4:45 p.m. to make sure everything in my pelvic area is okay, all you ladies should know what that means, my gyno tests all came back good and I am still fertile. And if the ultrasound comes back just as good they will be doing a tubal reversal before my sweet prince leaves for Iraq, which means we will be adding another Laporte to the clan. I am so excited, and Billy will be too when I finally get to talk to him and tell him the good news. I am so excited I can't hold it in. But I do have an infected cut on my index finger on the right hand and I have edema (swelling in both hands, bothe feet and one leg. I am healthy enough to have a baby though and the right weight and age for the operation. All my friends here ask if I'm sure that I would rather have bigger boobs, no I want to have a baby with the very special man in my life, the baby would be loved more than a set of fake boobs. He is a wonderful Daddy to his Lil Squirt here so this would make it even more special. He is one of a kind. Plus this baby would be spoiled right along with all the other grandbabies in our clan. And our clan will be so excited too. I don't really care what other people think only our families. We'll be having pizza and a movie at the SSgt.s house tonight and my sweetheart comes home on Mother's day now. I just sent him a whole box of goodies and a wallet size school pic of his Lil Squirt. So to all the family you will be getting yours soon too. And Dad, get those rapiers ready your box should be there next week it went out today. With special pics of your granddaughter but everyone pray about the ultrasound and tubal reversal and a healthy baby , and start coming up with some names to chose from. I can't wait...LOL. Well gotta get the house finished for our mortar FRG barbecue I'm having here tomorrow. Love all of you and miss you much, and if the surgery happens to be scheduled during his leave I hope you wouldn't be mad, we just want another Laporte to carry on the family name so it doesn't end with Billy plus we're older now and can handle it better than when we were younger. Love you much and can't wait to see you all. Oh yeah come to find out I am allergic to hay and straw, my hands are very red and itchy from picking up a bale to grass seed my backyard but that's the price you pay to have nice things....

Fun night with the girls

Thank you Melanie for having all of us over tonight, I enjoyed my evening with the Mortar girls. You and your husband are a blessing from God. Thank you for everything you have both done for us, you are very special and I am glad we are friends...It feels good to finally have a friend I can trust, and who accepts me for me, I don't have to pretend I'm someone I'm not. You have made me feel more than welcome in your home and for that I am grateful..Crystal we have been through alot in a little over a year and I wouldn't change it for anything in this world. Amee I am so glad we have met, I enjoy your company as well. None of you are fake and you are all quite sincere in your friendships...Maybe Sunday we can all have a get together at my home. Kind of take turns...Melanie thank you for the shrimp kabobs you got in my honor, but yours are still the best I have ever had...You are an awesome cook, mother, friend and woman..Your beautiful and you have a beautiful heart to go along with it..I am glad your husband is the one going to war with my husband it makes me feel safer knowing how he stands up for his men..It is rare in this world of chaos and hurt...May God bless you all...
Here is a poem I found for all of you and thank you for all you do...


by Boni
A shoulder to cry on,letters to send, money to borrow,clothes to lend,friday night hangouts,afternoon walks,2am phone calls,private girl-talks, memories together will never end,always and forever...My Best Friends


Here is one more poem for my fellow Mortar girls......


Your Friendship
by Amy
You are always right thereWhen I'm feeling downYou give your friendship to meAnd make a smile from my frownYou're such a wonderful personOne of the best that I knowI really don't know you very wellBut I pray our friendship and love will growYour friendship means the world to meWhen you're here, good feelings are foundYour sweet words and funny commentsAlways seem to come around.I want to thank you for all you've doneYou mean everything to meI love you so very muchI pray our friendship will always be!

Prayer of an Unknown Confederate Soldier...

I asked for strength that I might achieve;
I was made weak that I might learn humbly to obey.

I asked for health that I might do greater things;
I was given infirmity that I might do better things.

I asked for riches that I might be happy;
I was given poverty that I might be wise.

I asked for power that I might have the praise of men;
I was given weakness that I might feel the need of God.

I asked for all things that I might enjoy life;
I was given life that I might enjoy all things.

I got nothing that I had asked for,
but everything that I had hoped for.

Almost despite myself my unspoken prayers were answered;
I am, among all men, most richly blessed....

Quote of the day.....

Hold on to what is good even if it is a handful of earth.
Hold on to what you believe even if it is a tree which stands by itself.
Hold on to what you must do even if it is a long way from here.
Hold on to life even when it is easier letting go.
Hold on to my hand even when I have gone away from you.
-Pueblo

A Fun Night Out for the Girls

Well we went to play BUNCO last night, they only had room for one extra player so I let Amee Larsen go and play, but lucky for me they open the pool tables on Tues. and Thurs. from 7p.m. to close for free. Yeah that's more my style but I still had fun hanging out with the girls. I should say the Mortar girls...We have our own FRG thing going beings there is only four of us..We're all on for Friday night at Melanie Lunn's house. You'd think a SSGT's wife would be stuck up but not her or him for that matter, they really care about their people, which we found kind of odd at first but hey we're all a little odd aren't we..They at least accept my crazy ass self..Which all of you who know me can be hard at times..My sweet prince is still in the freakin desert but he's okay and that's all that matters...I still can't wait till he comes home, he's my best friend, actually he's my everything..Well I'm gonna go for now may write more later, everyone have a good one and talk to ya later...

The Military Wife

John Conlee has it right in his song They also serve. I tuck my daughter in bed and tell nightly Daddy is going to be alright. I put away the grocery, I play Mom and Dad, I sleep alone for over a year at a time and during training it's months at a time. But I love the man I married and I wouldn't change it for the world. Some women say how can you do that all the time, well my response to that is "That's why we are considered the strongest women in the world". This job is not made for everyone and I see that daily. Some women are just not made for this job and if you aren't strong enough to handle being alone and taking care of everything and I do mean everything down to fixing the kitchen sink if it breaks or leaks then don't do it, because it only makes it harder for our soldiers to deal with their jobs over there and they come home all messed up if not dead. So for all you women considering marrying a soldier think about the job ahead of you, it takes a special kind of woman....Tonight me and the Platoon SGT. wife are going to play BUNCO, not sure what that is but it's worth a try right.Something to do to pass the time while they are away. Then Saturday her and I are going to a murder mystery dinner for FRG, again something to pass the time that may be fun for all. Her and her husband just moved here from Fort Jackson South Carolina where he was a Drill SGT. Cool ass SSGT. though. My husband thinks very highly of him which is cool, he doesn't judge people and he sticks up for his soldiers which is what this Squad needed...Thank you SSGT. Lunn you are appreciated....Well I'll write more later or tommorrow, have a good day. And God Bless Our Troops..

My Sweet Prince SPC. William J. Laporte

I found my prince charming..He is the best husband any woman would be proud to have. I am very lucky and loved. He is my hero, my hero doesn't wear a cape, he wears combat boots. He is the half that makes me whole, and he loves me unconditionally even through my darkest days. He is an awesome Dad, and his babygirl cries whenever he is gone for days or weeks at a time, she has bad dreams, but as soon as Daddy gets home she is back to her normal ornery self..He is my safe harbor..My Army wife friends always tell their husbands "Why can't you be like Laporte", he spends all his time with his family and is family oriented, and they tell me how lucky I am to have found a man like him in a world full of chaos, hurt and pain. And they are all right. We are Muskateers, "All for one, and one for all". He learned from the best, I could not tell you enough how lucky I am to have the family I have beside me.They stand by me and make me feel like there isn't anything I can't face. And yes that is all of you. I have the best in-laws anyone could ask for, except they are not in-laws to me, they are my Mom, Dad, Sister and neice and nephews..And they are my support system, even when I get crazy sometimes. They love me unconditionally and make me feel like I am special and they took us in as one of them..Know you are all loved and special to us and no one could ever take your places in our hearts..Well love everyone and I'll write more tomorrow...

Come home soon!!!!

I think shedaisy has it right in their song Please come home soon. I sleep alone, i cry alone and it's so hard living here on my own. Our house is not a home without you in it..I know we're together even though we are far apart..But I have faith to light the darkened sky..You and the family surround me on the walls and shelves. You are all my saving grace in these crazy times. And I shouldn't have to name you all, you definetly know who you are..God has blessed me with a wonderful,sometimes tragic, crazy family...And for that I am grateful..You are all most appreciated..And Dad(Laporte) your son is just like you and you know what that is what I always count on, you are strong, courageous and humble, and you came home safe because of your will to live and allow others to live.Your Fairy loves you more than you will ever know and you helped me to be stronger in this fight.

The life of a soldier's wife.

I never knew heartache until I watch my soldier walk out the door. I always want to call him back for just one more kiss, hug and another I love you. You never know if it will be the last time you see him, and you want to make sure he knows how much he means to you.It feels like half of me is gone and that it is all just a dream you'll wake up from. You suffer from sleep deprivation, you seem like your in robot mode day in and day out. Sure you have family and friends but it's not the same.I sleep with his shirt or whatever has his smell on it.Our daughter wakes up and cries in her sleep. But deep in my heart I am one of the strongest, proudest women you will ever know. I am strong for my husband so he comes home safe, and even when things aren't going good I still tell him everything is okay. And pride,yeah I am very proud to be his wife and I am proud of what he stands for, a better tomorrow for all.When he is home I watch his every move and count all his steps as he leaves,they are my memories that I keep for rainy days, which lately has been alot. With him I am everything, without him I am nothing...I love you SPC. William Joseph Laporte, you are my past, present and future. And I thank you for being my saving grace in a world of chaos and hurt.